Thursday, April 15, 2010

Need to vent

Arghhh! So last night I spent the night in the ER, which is my second trip so far this pregnancy. I just got off the phone with my doctor's office, and they said that apparently my insurance company, United HealthCare, only uses one home health care agency in town...guess what, that agency doesn't do IV's! Are you kidding me? Arghh! I am so irritated! This means that every time I need fluids, I will have to either call me doctor's office and schedule an appt to go into the infusion center, or just go back to the ER. I was really hoping for home health care this time, b/c with kids, I can't just drop everything and go into the hospital every few days.

No wonder everyone calls them "United Health Who Cares?" !!!

Recap of last weekend

This is copied from my post on the HER network, b/c I didn't want to have to type it all over again.

I am due Dec. 2nd. The vomitting started last Wednesday, just before I hit 6 weeks. On Saturday, I started vomitting up the bile, and I couldn't stop it. I went into the ER, and they admitted me with moderate ketones. Saturday night, right after they started me on my 4th bag of fluids, I started coughing so hard I couldn't breathe! I was sweating profusely, and I couldn't stop coughing. I was scared, my nurse was scared, and things started happening fast. A stat EKG was ordered, a chest x-ray, and lots of labs, too. Long story short, my heart and lungs are fine, but they said I developed "wet lungs" from getting too much fluids too fast. Funny thing is, the next day at noon, my ketones were measured, and they were still at moderate. Something doesn't seem to add up there. I was discharged Monday morning after not being able to eat or drink anything Monday, and still throwing up. But, I had been able to keep down a little supper Sunday night, and my pee was starting to look more normal.

My doctor said that because of the state of my veins, next time they will probably put a PICC line in. Goodness, I begged my last doc for one, and he refused! So glad my new doc seems to get it better.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

It has begun...

Well, I haven't stopped throwing up today. The count is now up to 5 times, with keeping nothing down....

The good news is that yesterday we had our second ultrasound, and we saw his/her heartbeat! We were dated at 5w5d, with a due date of December 2nd, which puts our c-section date at right around Thanksgiving....barring sickness so severe that they have to take this little one early. HOPEfully that is not the case.

AND, right after I left my OB's, I was in a car accident. Thankfully, I am ok, but a lady sideswiped me, and put a couple small dents in the van. She said she didn't see me, or even feel hitting me, she only heard the scrape! Unfortunately, the impact of her hitting me seemed to stretch out my round ligaments to far, and I was having a lot of cramping yesterday and over night. But, it's over now...well until I have to start on the paperwork...

Monday, April 5, 2010

I'm about to burst!

I just want to be able to share the news with someone! But, alas I will continue to wait....

hCG is doubling nicely!

Yeah! My hCG is just over 20,000 today, and supposedly I am only about 5 weeks along. Crazy how high that number is! The good thing is that my doctor is very pleased, and we will have another ultrasound tomorrow. I know we probably won't see a heartbeat yet, but one can always hope, right? Perhaps my high numbers explain the brick in my tummy, and my super sensitive smeller. I am just hoping that HG stays away for at least another week. I want to have time to give the house a deep clean before I can't do it for another however many months!

Monday, March 29, 2010

hCG

My hCG levels are over 2,000, which means we have an ultrasound tomorrow morning! Yeah! Hoping to see a healthy little one. Maybe then I will be able to let some of this anxiety go. It's so funny how the Lord keeps reminding me of Psalms 46. On my way to my doc's appt. this morning, the song on the radio was based on Psalms 46, and it kept saying be still. Being still is something that I need to work on!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Positive!

It has been almost 6 weeks since I last miscarried. Yesterday I called my doctor, because I have never had to wait so long for my period to come back after a miscarriage. He told me to take a pregnancy test, and if it was negative, to wait another 2-3 weeks before calling him back. Well, I took a test this morning, and it is positive! Actually, it turned positive when I was still peeing on it, which is a good sign. With our last pregnancy, it didn't turn positive until about 3 or 4 minutes later, and even then it was really hard to see. This time it turned up immediately, so at least I know my hormone levels are higher than last time...which gives me hope. Now, because it is Saturday, I will have to wait to see the doc until Monday, which is a little unnerving, because I want to make sure my HCG and my progesterone levels are good. I just want some reassurance. I think I will just go ahead and start my progesterone tonight, since I still have some left from February.

Aghhh! I am so anxious! I can't believe that I am pregnant again! We weren't even trying, because we were told that most women don't ovulate their first cycle after a mc. Apparently, some do...me! I just want so badly to be able to see the future. With everything we have gone through, I just need to know this baby will make it to my arms. I am a little crampy, which I always am in the beginning of pregnancy, but it still worries me.

I am so thankful, last week in my devotions, God gave me a great passage that has just been in my mind everyday since then. It is Psalms 46, which talks about how God is my refuge and strength. It says that no matter what happens in this world, I need not fear. My favorite part of the chapter is verse 10, which says, "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Somehow, I don't think that my worry and anxiety fits into being still before God. This verse is just the perspective that I need right now. With everything that is coming in the next weeks, and hopefully months, this verse, and my God, will carry me through. Of this I can be sure.